padilla – “true heroism shows itself spontaneously somewhere in the space between courage and absurdity.”
That’s such a good space. When you want to say something or do something that’s bubbling up from the strange and secret depths of who you are, but you’re not sure if it will be a social failure or a communicative flop.
You’re afraid your self-expression or sense of humor may not be understood as you intend it, and you don’t feel like you have the skills to translate it into the communal, public language that we use to express ideas to other people. It’s so deeply yours, and it may end up being missed by those around you, just another offering to the universe and whoever’s watching – because nobody around you is – but you can’t feel right about holding back. You’ve got to express yourself and let that crazy-uncertain thing loose, even if it’s clumsily, even if you end up looking like a loon. You’re a hero, standing there, balancing, trying.